Perspective

We retreat to items of nostalgia to protect ourselves. The paraphernalia reminds us of when our identities were concretely defined in a time of less turmoil. In reality this identity was only manifested with the help of hindsight, when understanding the turmoil we were embroiled in occurred.

This too, shall pass.

Making mistakes is easy, but terrifying. This culture is too risk averse, substituting confidence for happy accidents. Stick your neck out from time to time and you may find something worth getting hurt for.

Single Livin' is Easy Livin'

It's hard to put your heart in the hands of another, because they never seem to appreciate its full value.

Yup.

That about sums it up.

"I'm used to your absence

Your faceless distraction."

Good grief.

I love Peanuts. Growing up it inspired a lot of my philosophy, and this is another beautiful summation of its weight and worth. Not your everyday, mindless humor.

A new saying:

Is she my best friend, or my cleverest enemy?

Feelings

I get the feeling sometimes that I'm a second-option.

It's sometimes really hard to shake that feeling.

"Ha. You're too nice to me."

That means, I don't like you. But I'm using you.

Then why did she even ask to go out?

Big gulp, huh?

Not doing so well balancing my life right now. Doing mostly work, with no social life. Once again I find that I cannot be involved in dorm life when I'm so heavily involved in band and my major, and also standup. I know a lot of people but have very little friends, and the people I do count as friends may be less of friends than originally thought.

But the roadrunner and I are going to maybe pick up the chase again. So that's something.

WELP... see ya later.

AA

How do you tell a unicorn you found a wyld stallyn?

The impermanence of the decision lends it vitality and vibration. Interest ebbs and flows, throwing doubt and certainty into current among one another, lurching toward a predestined goal beyond sight. A waterfall of passion.

Context of Mortality

Gaining knowledge about your surroundings and history can help you better contextualize your existence, letting you know what's important to you, and that you are unimportant.

What do you do when you find out that a loved one tried to commit suicide? Do you tell your friends, or keep it to yourself? Do you confront this person, or let them work things out for themselves?

You'd think I'd be better with this by now.

Faux Real?

Today I recreated a Salmon crepe that I had in Ireland. It wasn't bad, the salmon had been fried with sesame seeds, and instead of a crepe, a flour tortilla was employed, but it wasn't bad.

Am I destined to seek to recreate a Diet Ireland?

Officially sick of hip hop

Can we please start instituting more intelligence in our music? Little kids are learning the cat daddy when they need to learn proper argumentation and how to read.

What in the hell is wrong with the world? Why is education on the decline?

Cars 2

The silver lining in Cars 2 being so bad is that, although I am always quarreling with myself over my favorite Pixar movie, I will never be in doubt as to which is my least favorite.

Cars 2 was the worst thing I have seen since Pearl Harbor. The event. But also the movie.

Cars 2 lacked heart, character, plot, and cogency. It resembled more of the ramblings of a homeless person than the typically finessed stories of Pixar. Don't believe me?

"And then one car is actually a secret agent! But he's british! And the camera is really an EMP, which affects biofuel!"

Yeah. It sucked hard.

It's been awhile

No shit, right?

I've been thinking about what's gotten me thinking. My Pursuit Prof said it best when he said that trauma defines our experience. Being reminded of my own mortality has let me better shape the time that I do have on earth. Through Sean's suicide I have been inspired to think about God and depression, and through my pining for one woman, I have been inspired to think about true love, and what that entails.

I just felt like writing that down. Those two experiences have defined me a lot recently.

Lit Crit

"Literature is what we do it, much more than what it does to us."

Only taken a little bit out of context, this brilliant quote was recorded by my brain at a lecture given by Terry Eagleton at Notre Dame. Really good stuff.

Immortality at What Cost?

Humans sit up in the guard tower, laughing at the perfection of their construction below, the intricate maze they made for death to work through. Meanwhile he slipped by in the guise of error, and silently plants dynamite at the base of the tower, like Wiley Fucking Coyote.

The middle of the night seems a fabulous time to trip into nostalgia and longing.

Blog About Blogs

All of my friends are now blogging from abroad. All about how exciting couches, rooms and drinks are just because they're in a different country, proving the real estate maxim: the three most important things are location, location, location.

And I can't help but miss them, and be incredibly jealous of them.